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[Proko blinked. Then blinked again. He trusted Kavinsky when he said they were safe. But he also trusted him when he said it was complicated. It was almost enough to lull him back to sleep but then he looked over, really looked, and he went very still. He stared at the other version of himself and Proko2 stared back. It was like looking into a mirror and yet-]

K, what happened?

[It wasn't an accusation, it was just- he wanted to understand. He was sure Kavinsky wouldn't dream another version of him on purpose, which meant something terrible had happened, which meant- he didn't know. What were they supposed to do with another him? The older Proko looked miserable, like he was thinking the same thing, and Proko couldn't help but feel protective of him. Not necessarily because it was him but because he was a dream and every dream was unique and special and-

Under better circumstances, he would've felt flattered that Kavinsky had been dreaming about him but it was a little hard to think about something like that right now; it felt selfish compared to the potential consequences they were facing.]

I hadn't meant to bring anything back. It was just- dreaming self-indulgent stuff, about what if I really had a future. But then everything started to go to shit, like I couldn't control it. Things started burning and I just-- I knew it was a dream, but I wasn't thinking. I just wanted to keep you safe.

[Or, well. He'd wanted to keep Lyuska safe. But in the dream they hadn't been this distinct. And maybe it had been more than that, too. Maybe it had been wanting to keep the dream, the wish of it all. His Proko, but after college. After K had suffered inelegantly through detox and rehab and struggles that he remembered without having lived. He wanted to get there, even if he didn't know how to say it outloud. He wanted to give Proko a life that was worth something, where he could go to college and be proud of it.

Kavinsky looks a little bit embarrassed as he looks at Proko, not quite knowing what to say.]

I still love you.

[It's not the first time he's said it or anything, but he's still learning that he can, that he's allowed to love someone without hurting for it. He says it almost as much to remind himself, as the other boy. That this doesn't have to end like the dream did- in flames.]

You do have a future.

[It was instinctive, reflexive. He wanted a future with Kavinsky. He wanted to graduate Aglionby and go to college and live together and grow old together and- he wanted it all. He couldn't even think of being angry or jealous right now, not when it was so clear that K loved him. The fact that he'd brought the dream back with him without thinking showed how much he cared.

Proko kissed Kavinsky softly, sweetly. They were going to make this okay, somehow. Everything was going to work out.

He should probably ask why the dream had gone sour, if Kavinsky had any idea what'd happened, but they could get to that in a minute. If he remembered.]

I love you, too. What are you going to do about-

[He didn't finish, glancing over at his other self.

Proko2 smiled sadly, brushing his fingers through Kavinsky's hair for the sake of touching him.]

Whatever you decide- I understand. And you do have a future. You can do anything you put your mind to.

[Kavinsky smiled, because it made him feel- fuck, he didn't even know. Warm, just the way that Proko insisted that he had a future like he didn't even have to think about it. Like Kavinsky wasn't the only one here that had dreams about what their future looked like, that wanted it to be the two of them together. He murmured softly into the kiss, a flutter of his eyelashes at the way that it felt.

Sweet and soft, and like love. He's always been drawn to physical contact because it makes him feel wanted. Proko's hands on his skin, his lips on his lips, most of all. He had an answer, more or less, but it was an answer that was a question too. And it's in his eyes as he looks at the other boy. Can we keep him? The question for Kavinsky was never about anything except whether he could stay. He murmurs at the feel of his fingers in his hair, but it turns into an almost-whimper and he shakes his head.]

No, screw that. I'm not gonna-- I'm not fucking deciding anything. You're here now. That makes you real as anyone else, jerk. You have a life, okay? And it's your choice what you wanna do with it.

[The insult is heavy with affection, though. But it's also insistent: Kavinsky's decision, whether he'd meant it or not, had been in bringing him back and making him real. As far as he was concerned, Proko2 got to decide everything else. He couldn't decide this new one was somehow not as real as the boy he loved, just because it was difficult and inconvenient.]

I can get a social security number, and I'll work out all the paperwork so you can do whatever you want. I'll try and see if I can find a way to recreate your transcripts... I mean, if you go back to school it should at least be for your Masters.

[And then for a moment he tenses and he curses under his breath, dragging a hand over his face. And he blinks, his eyes glassy as he looks from the younger Proko to the older one while he talks.]

I love you both. I dunno if that's something I'm allowed to feel, but I've known I needed you since that party- and I dreamt you to be everything I wanted our life to be. How can I feel anything else?

[He almost makes it a sex joke; both because it's true, and because he wants to defuse the moment, to feel less raw and like he's being turned inside out. But he doesn't. Because this matters and for once, he... he doesn't want either of them to think this is that simple.]

[Oh. The older Proko looked distinctly like he was trying not to cry. He'd existed as a real person for less than five minutes and he'd already had a very different view of how his existence was going to go than Kavinsky did. He was touched, genuinely.

Catching K's hand, he kissed his knuckles, then kissed him again, on the mouth this time.]

You'd- I know that can't be easy. [But Kavinsky would do that for him, make him a real person, even more real than he was right now. He blinked back tears.]

I'd like that. All of it.

[Being a real person and going back to school. But he also didn't want to hog the spotlight. His younger self still had a life to live, too. He wasn't exactly sure how they were going to balance everything, but he was probably thinking about it too hard right now.]

We're both the same person, right? [It was Proko who spoke this time, kissing K on the cheek.] I don't think there's anything wrong with loving us both.

[He didn't know about Proko2, but he wasn't jealous. He thought it was incredibly sweet that Kavinsky had been dreaming about their future together. It meant so much to him, even with this...situation they were in.]

You're okay, my soul.

[The last bit was in Ukrainian, but it wasn't the first time he'd said it.]

[Kavinsky smiled, easing a little bit as Lyuska kissed his knuckles, and then pressed a kiss to his mouth, and he leaned in, pressing back into the contact. Kissing him back, even if it was brief. He brushed fingers against his hair, a whisper of a touch at the back of his neck that he tried to make reassuring.

But then Illya kisses his cheek and he shudders just for the way that his words are exactly what he needed to hear. He sniffles a little when he says you're okay, when he calls him my soul-- not for the first time, but he feels almost overwhelmed, overjoyed. Knowing that he hasn't messed anything up, that his boyfriend understands that it didn't mean he loved him any less. It was literally more than he'd hoped for.]

I love you so much. Thank you. I just.. I wanna make this good for him. Because you're right- he's you, too.

[He cupped the younger Proko's face, pressing a soft kiss to his boyfriend's lips. He didn't think anyone else had ever understood him the way that Prokopenko did, not even Ronan, even if he'd thought the other dreamer did for a while. It had always been Proko. He wanted to marry him, wanted his ring on his finger, wanted a house and a puppy and every happy moment he could steal from the world. But he didn't know how to say those things, he just hoped that he felt it too. He nuzzled in against him against his shoulder, hugging him softly.]

--But uh, does that mean I can tease you guys about a threesome now?

[Because it wouldn't be K if he didn't eventually make a sex joke about being in bed with two versions of Prokopenko. He grins, impish and warm, seeming to have recovered from his worries about how this might go.]

[There were a couple of ways Proko could have been genuinely upset about this and both of those worries had already been dispelled. Kavinsky hadn't purposely created another version of him. He hadn't done anything wrong or failed in some way as a boyfriend. If you could control your dreams, why not dream whatever self-indulgent bullshit Kavinsky had been dreaming? And whatever it was, Proko probably wanted it, too. But he knew how hard talking about some things could be for K, so he didn't blame him.

He did, however, laugh and swat him on the arm playfully.]

Of course, you'd be thinking about that already.

[But wouldn't Proko, if he'd found himself with two Kavinskys?

The older Proko laughed too, scrubbing at his eyes to get rid of any traces of tears. They were happy tears at least, as opposed to how he'd felt like everything was crumbling down around him in the first five seconds of really being alive.

He pressed a kiss to Kavinsky's shoulder, then another, soft and sweet.]

I think it can be arranged if you really wanna.

You're both gorgeous. And you're still the only boy I want -- so can you blame me?

[He grins, wicked and suggestive, but also adoring as he winks at his boyfriend. And he meant it, even if he says it casually: it's been a long time since Ronan was someone that he wanted. He still crept into his dreams sometimes, but not intentionally. He was happy with Prokopenko- more than happy.

He murmured, a slow flutter of his eyelashes, as the older boy pressed a kiss to his shoulder. He almost wanted to kiss him again, to wipe his tears away and just hold him in his arms, stroke his fingers along his spine like he had a night just over a year ago with Illya. When he'd first dreamt him back to life, murmuring his name into his hair and telling him he was okay.

But thankfully this was less traumatic: Lyuska hadn't really died. Kavinsky had saved him from that, not just eased the pain of it as much as he was capable. So it was easy to slide into this moment without feeling like he was being selfish -- or not too selfish, at least.]

Are you kidding? Of course I wanna. This is one of those fantasies. Twins or an older brother and they both wanna fuck you. 'Cept this is even better because it's you. My Illya and my Lyuska- oh, is that okay?

[He turns to the older one, leaning in to press a soft kiss to his skin.]

I should've asked.

[He knew names were important: why Josy was one of the only variants of his first name he'd accept without growling.]

[Prokopenko guessed opportunities like this didn't really come up very often. As in, never. They never happened outside of dreams. It was better than them being twins because being the same person meant they were going to be thinking the same things--right? Proko didn't really know anything about the other version of himself beyond the fact he was some future fantasy of Kavinsky's.

He wanted Kavinsky all to himself and there wasn't even any competition- because there was only himself here with K. It was a good thing he didn't hate himself, or else things would've been more complicated. But as it was, he felt nothing but fierce protectiveness and fondness for his other self. They were both dreams and every dream was special.

Laughing softly, he kissed K on the cheek, dipping his head to kiss at his neck afterward.]

I love you.

[The older Proko smiled, warm and fond, and nodded.]

Yeah, it's okay.

[Honestly, Kavinsky could have called him just about anything and he would have accepted it, but Lyuska was near and dear to his heart. Everything about K was. Kavinsky tried so hard, he had so many hopes and dreams and Proko shared them, encouraged them, watched them grow. His love for the dreamer was almost overwhelming.]

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